2005-05-01 | 2:57 p.m.
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Wow... its like so weird writing on diaryland again. I have so much to tell. God has been working miracles in my little life lately. I started dating my bestfriend Peter a while ago and Iv been praying for him sooooooo much that God will save him some way or another but I felt God putting stuff on my heart saying would you be prepared to break up with Peter for him to become a christian and I was lyk ummmmmmmm... no! how is that fair, I love him so much...so no you can find another way God. well God kept that on my heart for ages and finally I was like well God I guess if it means he could spend forever with you if he wont spend forever with me... then I guess thats kewl... WELL I DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO SAY OKAY THEN BREAK UP WITH HIM!!!!! well it wasnt exactly like that... I got sponsored to go to this camp called crysalis and i dont even know why i agreed to go... i remember pulling up on the first day and going... okay???? so why am i here again???? well that was the most life changing camp i have ever been to! I actually heard Gods voice. Just out of no where he was like "Peters not the one for you, I have someone else" well I just burst out crying and then God said "I have somone else foe Peter too" well how comforting God... thanks for telling me that the guy I was so in love with will one day be in anothers arms... well I guess that was the reality of it. I said "why have you taken me on this camp" he said "because you werent listening to me" I said how can I do this?" he said "trust me".... well after much hesitation, anxiousness, praying and going through MANY tissue boxes... I broke up with Peter. Over my 18 years of living it has been tha hardest thing I have ever had to do... EVER!!! But I am seeing God still working as Peter became a Christian 2 nights ago, he has stopped swaring and is reading his bible for the first time in his life!!! How awesome is tha power of God!!!! Also my spiritual life is flying and moving somewhere. Peter was the one thing that was keeping me from an AWESOME relationship with God and now that I have removed that with Gods help, God is so much more real to me!!!! I am getting baptised really soon and God has allowed Peter and me to still keep the amazing friendship we had before we started dating. Its still really hard, we both cry about it still and its hard not saying okay lets go back to the way things were but I know that with Gods devine help and so many peoples prayers and support that I still have... everything will be just fine. live for God!!! and TRUST him, I know it can be hard, but he knows what hes doing and he has plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you a future. Chao everyone xxx mwa xxx

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